Time to Hit RefreshNovember 2, 2012 at 11:08 am | Posted in Travels | 1 Comment
Holla. I just got back from a lovely jaunt to Denver to see my cousins! It was just what the doctor ordered. Spending time with Marfi and Jen is like staring into a mirror sometimes, because they know me to my core and because they love me so much, they really know how to get me to evaluate things in my life as to improve them.
I would say I am on the cusp of four major changes right now and all of them relate to how I am finally going to step up and take care of myself for once in my life. The first is a new career option. I’m venturing into the biomedical field as a project manager and am really excited to learn the nuances of this new field and to finally be challenged in a healthy working environment. The second is singledom. In the past weeks I was turning into someone I did not like and although the man I was dating was a good man, being in a relationship was keeping me from paying attention to the person that matters most…. myself. The third and fourth are related to that and each other. I went to give blood (O negative! What what!) a week ago and was turned away. High blood pressure was the reason and it has really scared me. Scared me because now I have a glaring neon sign screaming, cut out the salt and start exercising, every day.
It makes me sad that I had not gotten to this point already where I was taking care of my body and mind, but that’s my problem with myself. People and events in my past have treated me and made me feel not good enough. Because of that I had not seen a good reason to treat myself well. I feel silly writing this, but of course I am good enough, I am kind and thoughtful and smart and funny and loving. I’ve been taking on tasks, favors or creations for other people for a long time and although it is nice getting that feeling of appreciation, I have been denying myself attention. And I’m here to declare that I am going to push those obsessive tasks aside to pay attention to the two things that are going to keep me alive longer: working on this low salt diet and creating time in my day, every day, to exercise.
I started this blog to give me something to do and to also seek some praise and validation for the things I was creating in the kitchen. I don’t want to seek out praise and appreciation anymore on this thing, it feels annoying and fake. I don’t know if I feel like writing about food anymore, well maybe if I start to enjoy my new salt-less creations I will document those. I sure know I like taking instagram pictures, so count on that from me! If all goes well in the next six months, I will have a real permanent career path, a lower blood pressure, a more energized and stronger body and a calmer mind that is focused on good treatment of myself. I would love to be able to purchase a home of my own at some point in the next year so if that happens, I can’t wait to show off some home DIY.
Toot a loo friends, hope you have a wonderful weekend.