Here I sit in one of the most French laden establishments in Baltimore. Patisserie Poupon! I’ve been here before when my fancy camera was still exciting and novel and took some fun pictures.
This post is all about reflection. Two days from now is Five Years of Strawberries in Paris. It has been a sweet, fun, fast paced, sorrowful and joyful ride.
It’s amazing how much I have grown up in five years. I finally feel like my head is on straight and my priorities are falling into place as they finally should be. Hard work, good health, lots of love to and from my family and cherished times with my true friends. There really is one word to sum it all up: Gratitude.
I am grateful for all of this. I’m grateful for the energy I have to keep on going. I’m grateful for my readers and my supporters. I’m grateful that my cousin is two miles from here in the best hospital in the world and is healing slowly but surely. I’m grateful that I am finally in a place in my career when I can be sending emails at 11 pm for a clinical trial setup and have the biggest smile inside. The Lord takes us on a path and it is always much later do we see his reasons and wisdom.
I can’t wait to see where I am in 5 more years. But there is no rushing that!
So if you are reading this, I hope you as well can have some time today to sit back and see how things have changed in the past five years for yourself. I hope that your ride has also been amazing, not necessarily happy at all times, but still amazing.
Have sustained me like no other this year. The Orioles and the RAVENS!!!!! Those teams have given my momma and I so much excitement, so much happiness, so many reasons to look forward to each new day.
Many years ago, I would scream at the television if sports were on and say “SPORTS!” cause I did not understand why paying attention was more important than whatever else I was doing…. It took these past seasons to understand what the love of a hometown team can truly do to your heart. This is it! I am a fan for life! No matter if they win or lose. I UNDERSTAND NOW. So Thank you Sports Teams for reinvigorating my life.
Go check out the videos on the Ravens website from the Parade, etc today. They made me laugh and cry.
In other news, my new vocation in the biopharma world is keeping me on my toes, stretching my skills and pushing my abilities to a new level. This also means that those hours I used to be cooking and blogging after work are now filled with work activities. We’ll see if that changes, but for now I am uber thankful I have something amazing to be contributing my time to. This new vocation is going to give me the funds to purchase my own place and for that I am thankful. Happy Ravens Purple Parade Tuesday BALTIMORE!!!
From the words of Jillian Michaels…
“Be brave and be patient. Have faith in yourself; trust in the significance of your life and the purpose of your passion. You are strong enough to sit in the space between spaces and allow divine inspiration to shed some light. When you put positive energy and productive effort into the world it will come back to you. Occasionally in ways you might not immediately understand and on a time frame you didn’t expect. Look. Listen. Learn. Stay open. Your destiny is awaiting you.”
So glad I got to ring in the new year with some of my best girls! Here’s to Health and Happiness all year long.
WOOOOOOT. Just logged another set of miles this morning! Totals 15 miles from Sunday! Hot damn!
So if that is not evidence enough, my goals are being achieved. I have found a way to enjoy eating low salt food on 90% of my days (fyi, nutella is low salt ) and I have gotten up before the crack of dawn to hit the gym or hit the pavement EVERY DAY and it has been GLORIOUS. My brain is working, I don’t feel tired during the day, the BP is sitting right on the edge of the healthy range and the new job has been great. Just great. The people are awesome, the work is stimulating and I know I am going to learn a ton about the business of project management from my new team.
Look at beautiful Carroll Creek….
So enough about that, the real inspiration for this post comes from a certain set of people. Those people are the Women in my Life.
I am here to say that I am thankful for each and every Woman in my life. The women who inspire me, the women who check up on me, the women who tell it like it is, the women who bring laughter to my life, the women who brought adorable babies and doggies into my life, the women who cheer me on, the women who nag me, the women who love me and really to the women who believe in me. It makes me cry as I write this, but I AM SO THANKFUL.
I have recently become addicted to Cher Lloyd music and this song is perfect to fit these words…
Happy Friday wonderful Women!
Holla. I just got back from a lovely jaunt to Denver to see my cousins! It was just what the doctor ordered. Spending time with Marfi and Jen is like staring into a mirror sometimes, because they know me to my core and because they love me so much, they really know how to get me to evaluate things in my life as to improve them.
I would say I am on the cusp of four major changes right now and all of them relate to how I am finally going to step up and take care of myself for once in my life. The first is a new career option. I’m venturing into the biomedical field as a project manager and am really excited to learn the nuances of this new field and to finally be challenged in a healthy working environment. The second is singledom. In the past weeks I was turning into someone I did not like and although the man I was dating was a good man, being in a relationship was keeping me from paying attention to the person that matters most…. myself. The third and fourth are related to that and each other. I went to give blood (O negative! What what!) a week ago and was turned away. High blood pressure was the reason and it has really scared me. Scared me because now I have a glaring neon sign screaming, cut out the salt and start exercising, every day.
It makes me sad that I had not gotten to this point already where I was taking care of my body and mind, but that’s my problem with myself. People and events in my past have treated me and made me feel not good enough. Because of that I had not seen a good reason to treat myself well. I feel silly writing this, but of course I am good enough, I am kind and thoughtful and smart and funny and loving. I’ve been taking on tasks, favors or creations for other people for a long time and although it is nice getting that feeling of appreciation, I have been denying myself attention. And I’m here to declare that I am going to push those obsessive tasks aside to pay attention to the two things that are going to keep me alive longer: working on this low salt diet and creating time in my day, every day, to exercise.
I started this blog to give me something to do and to also seek some praise and validation for the things I was creating in the kitchen. I don’t want to seek out praise and appreciation anymore on this thing, it feels annoying and fake. I don’t know if I feel like writing about food anymore, well maybe if I start to enjoy my new salt-less creations I will document those. I sure know I like taking instagram pictures, so count on that from me! If all goes well in the next six months, I will have a real permanent career path, a lower blood pressure, a more energized and stronger body and a calmer mind that is focused on good treatment of myself. I would love to be able to purchase a home of my own at some point in the next year so if that happens, I can’t wait to show off some home DIY.
Toot a loo friends, hope you have a wonderful weekend.